Our Little One

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Everything happens for a reason. Timing is everything.

There was a short 5 weeks left to plan everything. Just having signed a lease to a new place that had an extra bedroom to build a nursery in, we were just starting to get everything together. A short 5 weeks, I would tell myself. 5 weeks can go by so fast.

I wasn’t prepared to deliver 5 weeks early due to severe preeclampsia and HELLP syndrome that developed what seemed like overnight. My baby wanted out and my body was tired of playing host. The doctors kept saying that if I was induced it would give my family time to get to the hospital from Texas to be with me, and I needed them to be there. With my platelet count and blood pressure out of control, my condition went from starting the process of induction to emergency c-section the next morning. I will never forget the kindness of friends and family, Justin always at my side, and the relief I felt when I saw my dad’s face after getting on a midnight flight to be with me. Timing is everything.

With little time to process everything, it wasn’t long before I heard our little one cry, a cry that made both Justin and I also cry. She was here, a tiny 3 lb. girl ready to meet the world and hungry as hell. Her days in the NICU were shorter than expected and we were able to bring her home sooner than we thought. With family as overwhelming help and support, we were ready to welcome our little one to an actual home and not a hot mess filled with unpacked boxes that would’ve surely been the case if it wasn’t for them.

As I stare at her tiny face, body swaddled all nice and cozy and wearing the same little hat she got at the hospital because it’s the only one that fits her, I still can’t believe that she’s mine. That I made her. That she grew into a tiny human inside me. I get teary-eyed just looking at her, wanting to hold her in my favorite position of her head on my chest while I kiss her tiny head.

It’s tough to stay present in the moment when you have your mind wrapped up in feeding times, pumping, diaper changes, formula-making, breastfeeding, sleep and how-the-hell-am-I-going-to-do-this-on-my-own fears, but I  am constantly reminding myself to enjoy the sweet moments. I can already see her getting bigger and bigger everyday and pretty soon she won’t be able to take a nap on my chest anymore.

They say it’s different when you have a baby. That when you hold your baby in your arms for the first time your world is forever changed. That being a mom changes you in ways you never thought was possible. I can say right now, with my hormones and emotions off the charts, that I am the luckiest woman in the world that our little Olivia chose me to be her mommy, her advocate and her protector. After all we’ve been through, I can’t let her down.

Everything happens for a reason. Timing is everything.

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friday’s fab five {1.23.15}

The fab five is posted every Friday to end the week on a happy note and features items on my radar that I’m loving right now. Who knows, you might find something that could be on your fab five list!

What are you up to this weekend? My mom and sisters hosted the best baby shower this weekend and I’m so happy we were able to make it happen. This kid is going to be so loved it’s ridiculous. Justin was able to meet me here and I decided to hang out with the parents for a couple of days afterwards as it’ll be my last time to travel before the adventures of mommy hood consumes my life. Add to that a new house to move into. Let the adventures begin!

Here’s this week’s fab five:

1. Dance Cardio with Natalia

Stop whatever you’re doing and watch this video, seriously. This girl rocks, and I’m proud to say she’s my sister. Her class is a mix of hip hop and latin, and guaranteed to make you sweat your you-know-what off. It’s the only kind of workout I’ll do aside from yoga, and she makes it fun. Check out her youtube channel and facebook page. If you’re in Dallas- try a class!

2. Recipe of the week: Chocolate Desserts

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image via Today Show

Since I couldn’t pick just one, I decided to link the recipes shown on the Today Show for your viewing (and cooking) pleasure. I’ll take one of everything please!

3. Grey and Yellow Baby Shoes $26

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image via etsy

Can we talk about how utterly adorable these baby shoes are?? Since I’m thinking the nursery colors would be grey and yellow, you can tell where my mind is as far as colors. So, so cute.

4. Valentine’s Day Candle Holder $40

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image via etsy

So pretty, even if you don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. These candle holders give the right amount of soft lighting to any room.

5. Jimmy Fallon Plays “Catchphrase” with Jennifer Lopez

I couldn’t stop laughing at this, I so want to play it! My family’s game is Taboo, so this one is right up our alley. I was afraid J.Lo’s top was going to reveal too much at one point, but she’s got her team on it. Fun game!

That’s it for me, have a great weekend everyone!

friday’s fab five {1.9.15}

The fab five is posted every Friday to end the week on a happy note and features items on my radar that I’m loving right now. Who knows, you might find something that could be on your fab five list!

Happy 2015! How are you feeling about the new year so far? A friend of mine and I were talking about how stressful 2014 was, and how 2015 seemed like it was off to a rough start. Is it us or are you guys feeling it as well? With the new baby, finding a place for our lives to grow and the prospects of new opportunities and changes, it’s going to get rocky ladies and gentlemen!

Here’s this week’s fab five:

1. Food Pick: Java Caramel Coffee Cubes $14.99

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Move over Starbucks Via, I’m willing to give these little cubes a shot. Just drop in hot water and there you have it, sweet coffee galore. Time to wake up!

2. Weekend Bag $120

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image via Etsy

I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t have a good weekend bag. I need one that expands easily, but can also be squished enough to fit under seats or overhead bin when traveling. This one is a bit on the pricey side, but so cute.

3. “My Brain Has Too Many Tabs Open” Print $23

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image via etsy

Let’s just say this print speaks to me in so many ways. Right now it’s on overdrive and might show me the blue screen of death any minute.

4. Cards Against Humanity $25

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image via amazon.com

Have you guys played this game yet? I know it’s been around for a while, but I finally got a chance to play it and damn it was fun! Since it can be dirty/gross/crude/innapropriate, just make sure you know who you’re playing with. Oh and as far as parents and grandparents, maybe pick a different game.

5. Song Pick: “Doubt” Mary J Blige

Love my girl Mary J, check out this new one from her London Sessions album. I think you’ll like it!

That’s it for me, have a great weekend everyone!